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Okay, so yesterday I went out to dinner with my two friends. You see we three have a tradiiton that we go on a multicultural dining experience. So we have done mediteranean, southern food, chinese, korean, japnese, vietnamese, etc. so Last night we went to pf changs. I have to say I’m proud of myuself because I had ordered an all vegitarian entree with brown rice. This is rather an accomplishment for me, because I typically am the usual carnivore. After dinner, my friend’s younger brother entered an open mic nite at a local cofee house. This is where my accomplishment receeded back. With my hands cuffed with a spoon, I sentenced my self to a warm caramel blondie a la mode. OOOH I was bad, but I have to say I was proud to have left a few bite on the plate. Oh well, what can I do. Today I have been running sporadically during the day. I am trying my best to avoid eating refined carbs, and staying out of the cookie jar. teehee. The day is half over, and that means half the battle has been off. I need to start thinking the day in increments rather than the entire day or weeks. Take half a day at a time; keep my mind focus on the moment. Hopefully perceiving the day in halves I will be able to fight the battle a little easier.

I was reading a magazine and there was a 5 page spread dedicated to weight lost goals and success stories. One had stated she used weight lost blogging site to motivate her to lose weight. I thought I would try. As I am getting ready to go to work today, I notice my pants got tighter and my belly hanged more and more outside of my pants. I could easily blame my dryer, but I know better. I don’t want to be hilton, lohan, and richie skinny. I want to be healthy and still have my curves. I love my curves I have lost weight before and I wasn’t happy with the result. My body became flimsy, my curves disappeared, and I was dissatisfied. This time i want to do it right. My biggest priority through this challenge is to maintatin tonality. Gaining all the weight back that I lost, only created bigger problem; bigger cellulite, bigger stomach, etc. When I lost weight my skin sagged, myt butt got flatter, I looked unhealthy. I don’t want that either.  What I want most is to be able to weart high boots during the winter season. I have HUGE calves, and I don’t want to spend hundreds of dollar to have boots customize to me. That would be so wonderful. Another thing, next winter i am going back to the Philippines. I don’t want to be the fat one, when the entire country is naturally pencil thin. I need to lose weight by then! I can do this. I know I can.

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